I went as far to tell my friends I was a satanist. I wasn’t, I never did anything weird associated with that, just used that label. I know God is forgiving but I can’t help but fear I’m lost in his eyes. I have grown up now (pt2)
I’ve begged for forgiveness but I still don’t feel right. I used to feel this warmth in my heart when I prayed and It’s just not the same now. Do you think it’s too late for me? I really need help, this is literally killing me inside. (Last part)
You are not the first, nor will you be the last teenager, young adult, adult, senior, elder, teacher, missionary, pastor, senior pastor etc. to fall into trends and fads that deny their faith.
Some of them aren’t as noticeable as others, but they have the same end: they deny Jesus; and allow us to conform to fads or common thinking.
One of the greatest disciples in the Bible, Peter, denied Jesus 3 times in the midst of a trend. What trend was that? People calling for Jesus’s death. Everyone was so riled up to crucify him that Peter felt like he was stuck between Jesus and what everyone wanted. And he chose to fit in. To not stand out.
When Jesus needed someone to stand for him, Peter abandoned his faith. And many times, we find ourselves in those same situations. We trade in Jesus for safety. To fit in. To do what we want. It could be for 10 minutes or it could be for 10 years, but if we repent (ask for forgiveness and turn from our wrong doing) Jesus is LOVE and is ready to forgive!
There is nothing in this world that can separate you from the love of Jesus. [x]
Jesus knows us. What we do, or are going to do, isn’t a surprise. He knew Peter would deny him before Peter had even done it! And yet he still loved Peter.
What does this tell us? It tells us that God knows every action we are going to take. Every step, every word that we utter, he knows it before it is said. And instead of making Jesus angry or making him ashamed or make him turn away from saving us, JESUS HAD MERCY ON US. Jesus CARED. And so Jesus died so that all these wrongs could be made right through him.
[Now, remember - this doesn’t grant us freedom to abuse God’s mercy. We should love God and obey him as a response to his this amazing grace.]
So dear friend, Jesus knew we needed saving from our behaviours, from our thoughts and our actions, and most of all - From our PAST. And that is why he came to die for us, because we needed it.
He loves you more than you have yet to understand. Don’t let guilt and fear separate you from Him.
I know that feeling you have.
When I was younger, I was so angry with God that I told him that I was going to just follow Satan. I remember that very night, and I will never forget it as long as I live. The night I let my pain get in the way of my judgment. But God didn’t let me sabotage myself for too long, he pulled me in with his love by reminding me who I was. Even when I hardened my heart and didn’t want to listen, he guided me back to him in the end. He reminded me I was his daughter. And that no one could take away from him what was his.
The sheep that are My own hear and are listening to My voice; and I know them, and they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and they shall never lose it or perish throughout the ages. [To all eternity they shall never by any means be destroyed.] And no one is able to snatch them out of My hand. My Father, Who has given them to Me, is greater and mightier than all [else]; and no one is able to snatch [them] out of the Father’s hand.
I and the Father are One. -DEUTERONOMY 30
But I had to learn to repent, and be humble, and let go of the thoughts that were not God’s thoughts. So even though I couldn’t feel God with me because of all my shame, I had to step out in faith to believe that his promises to be with me, to forgive me, to save me, were TRUE.
And that faith changed EVERYTHING.
You see - Gods thoughts for you are not the ones you are holding on to. He has already forgiven you. But your emotions on the matter, all this guilt, is keeping you from seeing how God really feels. The enemy will come whisper doubt into your ear, but hold on to God’s promises and don’t be swayed by what you think.
So I will tell you what God says:
2 If at that time you … return to the Lord your God, and if you obey with all your heart and all your soul all the commands I have given you today, 3 then theLord your God will restore your fortunes. He will have mercy on you and gather you back from all the nations where he has scattered you. 4 Even though you are banished to the ends of the earth, the Lord your God will gather you from there and bring you back again. 5 The Lord your God will return you to the land that belonged to your ancestors, and you will possess that land again. Then he will make you even more prosperous and numerous than your ancestors!
6 “The Lord your God will change your heart[a] and the hearts of all your descendants, so that you will love him with all your heart and soul and so you may live! 7
God loves you. He has forgiven you. If you have turned back to God after your time astray, he will restore you. He will fix all those scattered pieces and he will give you the land you should have - meaning he will give you your inheritance. Which is heaven. He will help change your heart, you don’t have to go at it alone. But all you have to do is have faith, and believe that he has already done it. He wants you to be sure of your salvation. And he wants you to get up in boldness and act as if your God is able to do the impossible. Like forgive what you have yet been able to forgive of yourself. And begin healing.
So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed!
Cheer up, your walk with God as just begun. And I am here if you need to talk.
Friend, God knows how to make up for years you’ve lost in your life. No, you can’t relive your childhood, but God can make the rest of your life so rewarding, so fulfilling that you don’t even miss what didn’t happen in the past. You may feel like you wasted years in a relationship that didn’t work out. But God can bring somebody into your life so great, so fun, so friendly, so attractive that you don’t even remember the years that you’ve lost. You may have spent years on a job that turned out to be a dead end. You were working your way to the top; things didn’t turn out like you had hoped, and now it looks like there’s a big waste of time. You may not see how you could ever get to where you want to be, but don’t believe those lies. God knows how to make up for lost time. God can accelerate things. God can bring opportunities back across your path that you missed that will thrust you years ahead. It may not have happened the first time, but God will always give you another chance. He’ll make up for the lost time and bring you out better and stronger than ever before!
Anything that isn’t love, is lust.
That’s a pretty black and white answer there isn’t it?
Even I get a little hard headed about it sometimes but then I remember who I’m serving and that He is three times holy, (that’s really holy) and there isn’t really wiggle room. He’s always very clear.
But let’s break it down a bit in order to really understand it.
Lust is defined as - "A very strong sexual desire."
It’s something we choose to do when we are driven by what we want.
- Lust can be looking down a girls shirt, looking at a boys boot-ay as he walks by, or yes, feeling up your girlfriend in the back of a car. It’s a natural response. Lust is innate in us because our bodies are driven by what they want. But just because it’s natural, doesn’t mean it’s meant for us. Don’t get that confused. Remember, we were meant to be divine. Divine just means ‘like God’. We were created in his image, but were corrupted by the nature of this world when we sinned. Once we accept God into our lives, we are meant to, once again, be extensions of Him.
And that’s the battle! We have our nature (our bodies of flesh that just want to be happy) that is in constant conflict with the divine spirit inside of us that is seeking a relationship with God.
How do we ‘do’ lust?
Well, lust might be driven upon us by another, like her getting on top of you, or by a habit - like always looking at a girls behind as she walks by, but it’s a deliberate action we decided to take part in. It’s pleasurable, we enjoy it, and it gratifies us. We may claim that we are doing ‘nothing wrong’, because it makes us happy, or ‘everyone does - and it’s socially ok as long as we aren’t hurting anyone’, but we are hurting someone, we are hurting ourselves. And the other person as well. We are replacing God’s will in us with our own, and damaging our hearts in the process.
So what if I don’t want to do lust? What the heck is Love then?
The Bible defines love in a beautiful scripture in 1 Corinthians:
4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance….
There is a clear difference between the two isn’t there?
While lust is driven by desire and attraction, love is driven by good and selflessness. Now I am not saying that the emotions involved in both don’t intersect somewhere along the line - they DO, and that’s what makes it so dangerous! Because we may be trying to love someone and act lustfully!
We need to learn about both in order to distinguish each, and also in order to learn how to really love someone.
SO then - Love is not unjust, meaning that love does what is right regardless of what one may want to do! And then rejoices about it! So it doesn’t just have patience for the wedding day, it’s happy that it’s waiting, it’s not frustrated by doing good.
It is patient and kind meaning that there is respect, that it honours the other. It’s mindful and gentle, not agitated or angry when it doesn’t get its way. It isn’t proud or rude so it’s not selfish and puts another before itself.
So what am I saying? Well I am saying that lust is easy to do.
And Love takes work and commitment and sacrifice and patience.
If you love this girl, you need to put her before yourself. Which means that you have to put her physical and most importantly, spiritual welfare, before your own desirers. What you are doing is very dangerous, because you’re putting yourself in the way of temptation where things can go wrong very quickly. Not only are you gambling with your salvation, you are gambling with hers. And that my dear brother, is not love. That is lust. Because you are not being just.
I know it’s hard, believe me, I have been there and that is why I am telling you this now. When we are really attracted to someone, it’s so easy to just let go and do the thing. All the things. But lust is not worth it, LOVE is worth it. C:
When was the last time you declared “I can” out loud? It’s not something people think to do every day. In fact, most people tend to magnify their limitations. They focus on their shortcomings. But scripture makes it plain: all things are possible to those who believe. That’s right! It is possible to see your dreams fulfilled. It is possible to overcome that obstacle. It is possible to climb to new heights. It is possible to embrace your destiny. You may not know how it will all take place. You may not have a plan, but all you have to know is that if God said you can…you can!
Today, why don’t you begin to open yourself up to possibilities in your future by simply declaring this verse, “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength?” At the stoplight, when you’re waiting in line, any time you have a second just quote this verse to yourself again. Let it sink down deeply into your heart. As you do, His word will transform you. Faith will rise up in your heart and will boldly embrace the blessings that He has in store for you!
Today and every day let this be your prayer: “God, give me the grace to accept Your timing.” That means you’re asking for God’s strength, His supernatural empowerment to stand strong while you are waiting. Choose to keep believing, choose to praise Him, and choose to accept His timing knowing that He is faithful and has untold blessings in store for your future!
Hello my dear, thank you for your question. First off, I’d like to just congratulate you. Pre med is a big decision and it’s an admirable profession and I know that you will make a very caring and compassionate physician one day!
Now, I am going to take this question in two parts - I’ll begin with explaining that changes you feel after praying and I will end with helping you understand God’s character a little bit more.
So, firstly - Prayer is the one thing that connects us directly to God on a profound spiritual level. Fasting, reading the Bible, fellowshipping, and going to church are all very important for a healthy discipleship, but if we want to find the KEY to a relationship with God, we can take a look at where the success of the early church came from. And it’s from prayer. All they did was PRAY! All Jesus asked of them was to pray! He asked them to pray that the Holy Spirit come over them, and to pray for direction for their lives.
So then, why are you feeling conflicted about your life choices when you pray? It could be that you’re having doubts because you’ve always had other dreams, or it could be that you’re reconnecting with God and picking up on the calling he has for your life.
When we pray, things in our lives start shifting. We begin to hear God much more deeply than before, and we begin to see the design behind the designer. If we’re given special talents like singing, we begin to see a greater purpose for them. A divine purpose.
4 Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me.
Now on your spiritual wavering. When we separate ourselves from God, we’re cutting ourselves off from our natural development. A branch is nothing without the vine that sustains it, and by separating yourself from God, you’re separating yourself from the plans that he has for you. But, the amazing thing is, we can be reconnected - that’s what Jesus died for. He died so that we can have the ability to come to God without embarrassment of sin, simply by asking for forgiveness and humbling ourselves. (Humbling just means understanding that God knows what’s best for us and accepting that.)
So, has your entire life been a waste? Did you make the wrong decision? Are you going against God’s will?
No, no, and no.
God works in us in His time. Sometimes we want to put Him in a box and limit when and how God can use us - “If I don’t do this, I can’t be used! If I don’t go into ministry, if I don’t use my gifts, i f I - If I…” So many questions, so much guilt and confusion. God works with our choices, he’s awesome and loving like that. Yes, there are going to be times when he’ll want you to be obedient to his will, and those are going to come, but it seems like you’ve just begun to really let God direct your steps. And God will work with you.
God is also a God of clarity and direction. If you ask him he will tell you, and if you haven’t asked or been to afraid or distrustful, then just ask God to forgive those things that have kept you from seeking him (like lack of an economically successful career) and let him lead you where you are. There are a ton of people who need God where you are RIGHT NOW!
Don’t forget that God has kept you so far! It is He who has given you the wisdom and the skills to work in this field and the brain to understand and study. We can’t forget that either. You’ve worked hard to get where you are, and God has honoured that.
So lastly, by understanding God’s mission, we can understand how God see’s the decisions you’ve made: His mission is to shine through you, to reach those in your midst that don’t know him! So he see’s your decisions as an opportunity! God has allowed you to go to this school and meet the people you have met, so that you can be His light in their darkness. Maybe God wants you to start a worship ministry on campus! God can use you anywhere! He gave you those talents and gifts for a reason, and this could be it. Don’t limit yourself to a church setting when the lost are everywhere. And if you’re meant to be a worship leader or a musician or a recording artist one day - it will come to pass. (Just look at Joseph.) Just stay connected. Don’t let your emotions win out! God is with you, and he loves you.
And let me tell you one last thing before I go. God is not a God of disorder. Just think about how he created the world, we see how orderly and how creative he is. He finished the world before he set up the ecosystem, and the animals before he set up the humans… God will not pull you away from your studies and create chaos in your life if he’s leading you elsewhere, he will give you the wisdom to balance both things, or give you the patience to finish one before the other begins. Ask God for a sign. A clear sign. God is in the business of being miraculous, so if you’re looking for direction, be patient, ask God for a sign, and pray.